Happiness

Happiness, that’s a thing that comes and goes in me. I’ve seen happy days but I’ve seen more sad than happy. But at the end of the day looking back on how far I came and what I’ve over come I’ve truly become a happier person. I’m more up beat and optimistic at times and I always try to make someone smile. I feel like happiness comes from within and people can feel your energy.

During my Depression I told myself I need to find something that makes me happy. And in that search I found the hobby of Gardening. Yes I know out of all things gardening even though I’m sure I don’t have the “green thumb” that everyone speaks of but it does help me calm down as well as it being Therapeutic for me. I go to my local Home Depot and I will be excited just looking at plants because of all the ideas I have in my head of what I can do with them and where I can plant them. I always told myself when I get a house I’m gonna make a huge garden and have every type of plant and fruits and vegetables growing. For some reason they really do make me happy.

Another Thing I discovered that I enjoy is having a bird feeder and a squirrel feeder. It’s like my very own nature pets. I enjoy coming home every morning and seeing the birds and squirrels eating their morning breakfast and lunch. I remember when I first bought the squirrel feeder there was this one squirrel who would literally eat it all the way down until it can sit inside the feeder and just like it’s head out but it would literally sit in there and eat all the food. I never saw a problem with it I thought it was amusing just like the birds that throw the food on the floor for the other birds to eat it’s like a teamwork thing with those birds but I enjoy watching them eat their full.

And lastly I really have tapped into my Spiritual side. I enjoy meditation, and speaking with my ancestors and spirit guides. Through this realization I feel like I have noticed a lot of things when it comes to myself and people around me, some good and some bad. But every time I get overworked I would meditate to calm me down and honestly it really did, most of the time. And me taking to my ancestors and spirit guides also helps me because I have someone to vent to and they listen. I’m glad I picked up that skill and method because who knows what I would be doing half the time when I lose it.

I feel like Happiness comes from you and starts with you. Yes I have had my faults where I haven’t been happy but I really am getting better step by step and slowly changing into a better person for myself. Happiness is my main goal at the end of the day as well as self love, I’m going to achieve it slowly and surely.